let the others give some advise

"When things does not seem right, its time to give it up. There is no point to keep hugging on it, praying and hoping it will turn for the good. It will be even worst off to even think that the situations will be getting better after putting in some "brilliant" ideas. Do not get sink in too deep and never get out. Listen to the others. Give others and yourself a chance to see if it is correct in the first place. There has to be a point where everyone will agree upon. "

HAve YOUr say, Have mY say

The weekend's here. I am not going work for later of the day (its now sunday morning). It's a long time since I have a decent break.

So 1 week's over now since I told the boss that I am quitting. And I think I am not going to leave anytime soon. He cannot find a replacement. The week's also disastrous for me. Its hell when you sit down there doing nothing (cannot slp also). I have to try all ways to myself busy and its a bit of tiring.

There are still weeks before lesson starts. The usual I got no results yet. Not much confident for the results of this sem becoz of those crop of errors. Assignments got some problems also. Anyway I more or less decided that I am not going to stop after the degree. I WANT TO GO FOR FURTHER STUDIES. I am going no where with the degree also. SO now the Million Dollar Questions will be: How am I going to do that?, Where to do it? Overseas or Local?, When Am I going for it? What Specialization?

ONe of the days

I am more or less lax today. Not much reasons, cannot be explained also. The day seems easy on me today.

The family are celebrating my nephew FIRST birthday on Sunday and they are like preparing for it already. Buffet was ordered (i think). Then dunno why drinks and others like fruits and serving plates were also bought. All should be provided by the catering bah (thats what i though so).

Anyway it will be held at one of the rooms at the new stadium in Jurong West. I dunno how it look like now, never ever step in since the opening :P.

So It is Exactly one week since I start the REAL Forex Trading. Enormous experience for me. It's really not for the faint hearted. You have to be very mentally strong cause its trading with real cash. Your thoughts will Actually run wild when you see yourself losing bit by bit and definitely psychologically affected. On the other hand, Greed will take over if there is money to be made. You will hold and keep pressing for more and ultimately lose track of your own motives and targets. Advise is to trade with care.

" What does it mean when you don't see a person for some time and you start to think about him or her? "

What and what and what what

I dunno when I dread staying home. I had though everything will change after some time but it remained the same. It was wonderful in the first place. Everything was perfect. As time went by, things started getting chaotic. What problems, what history, all surfaced. It IS NOw BAck to Square ONe. For a Fact, NOthing is perfect and NOthing Last long. I dunno what to do. I am totally lost. I have to try and avoid it. I don wan to see it happen again. It makes me feel sad. I dunno if I should just move out on my own now. It will become a burden and yes definitely.

bad week

UPdate for the days past days.

I was not feeling well from monday. A bad start for the wk. Laid in bed for 2 whole days before finally able to get up. quite serious. I got GOut attack, plus fever plus vomitting and passing water through the asshole :P. All at one go very bad. I was like dying. But surprise!!! surprise!!!. Everyone was like know what happen and called me if i was feeling ok. Haha Thks.

I finally get to try trding the forex with REAL money now. Sure was heart thumping. You see the money in account getting ups and downs like roller coaster ride. ONe mistakes and gone the money.

The most frustrating msg i got was from one of my lecturer. He said he did not recieved one of the assignements. So ya 2 wks after the exam and something not receive may be equals Failing grade. Where's all the points now?

much unhappies

its a bit of stressful over the week. Things don seem to go smoothly as expected.

The exams' over. Left with the last few modules. As the course is coming to an end, my stress level build up. Partly cause due to 'some' unknown future. Yap and its totally getting all over.

Life @ work nowadays don seem enjoyable. I am quitting soon also And its probably the next day. NO point continuing already since there is no understandable situations. There are choices but people chose to not see, hear or tok about it.

tHE hardest is to Be Easy

This is the beginning of the official term break. So I guess 1 month from now, I am going no lecture rooms or classrooms bah.

May have to make use of this so called last term break (maybe???) to really think about what to do after graduation. I don really have a plan still. I still cannot give an answer to what I am going to do after that. Sound a bit useless hoh...

" I am in a situation where I am lost. I am doing the same things as others, but I am doing no better than them. All necessities, all things needed are provided, I am provided with the most help possible and others are willing to help also and giving ideas but nothing got done in the most fashionable ways. People are losing patients, losing interests and maybe even hope. The words said in the beginning are not going to be fulfilled as easily as it is. Maybe its just my wishful thinking that things are going to be easy. "