Paradox of Paradoxes

我怕我再也见不到妳因为我们的距离已越来越远

it been days since i blog. yes i am still alive so dun worry everyone. :p its juz that those assignments have bog me down. making me no mood to blog. Uncle Flu also came looking for me making me all dizzy. i don even know what i am doing sometimes when i am at hm.


So its the end of the month, assignments have mostly settled. freed up some time already.


got to meet Ah shun last sat (28th??) bah. i was like juz reach hm and he called me. settle things down went out again. we met orchard went walking around, settle at Centrept Mac for a drink and went on again. boring leh. dunno where to go. though of going ECP but due to some reasons we void the idea.


then Ah Shun wans to surf the net. so took him to Cuppage Plaza for his experince on the net. he was so excited like a kid being brought to a new environment but i was bored stiff already. tried playing the lan games but it was like years away so give up. told him to go somewhere else but this stubborn one refuse to go so ended up there till thnk 0130 bah. haha no choice so he cabbed hm and i ended up taking NR. rubbish lah


So tomolo (310707) will be the last day i will be working at the current address. it will be moving to another location but its still in the CBD area. So no work from 010807 onwards till further notice. this will be a nice time to catch up on my lessons. too many doubts liao.


OVERSEAS TRIP!!!!!!!!! I AM STILL WAITING FOR MY TRIPS TO OVERSEAS!!!!

the seafood fried instant noodle

Ideas need not be new, they just need to be better.

能力与人格，结果与过程，现实与理念

Another day passed. Its less then a wk to hand in the assignments. no ideas where to start n what to look for...... or maybe the click is juz not here yet.......

that aside (the inspirations will juz come when the time is right)

went to bugis today for a small gathering today. there were 7 ppl including me. 4 aunties n 2 from Central bar. as usual we tok about problems (complaints) . chat about this n that.

then we all were so engrossed in our toks that we started to tok louder. before i realised it ppl around us was already staring at us. (hehe very paiseh one leh)

saw Joko at bugis Mac while we were there. got to noe he working part time n still trying to take his O level. (Izzit?? did i got it wrong??). tok for a while before he rush to his work.

Got steamboat for dinner today. its like finally got ppl have dinner with me loh. i have been having dinner alone for the past wks loh. then we were like going to try some dessert next door but give up on finding that we need to queue up n order.

made our way home after some small chats. this Meijie told me sthing before we go our separate ways.i don get the chance to ask her why also. what is she trying to say to me???

"Ah Ming u r a block of wood"

Failure is not something permenent. It is a useful learning tool to help others sidestep pitfalls and realise their goals.

付出人生与生命去保护你最宝贵的

Its three weeks since first lesson. changes between 3 lecturer n 2 tutors making me all confused.

the appeareance of the third lecturer also depicts that i am already completing the first year liao. So bye bye to all of them (Yes!!!!!). its down to the assignments n exam liao.

So lesson learn from the 3 is that u juz have to attend the lecture n concentrate on your assignments. (applys to me try at your own risk!!!!!) they r not going to do much during tutorials. its going to be some backup teachings n help u get along on the assignments.

Speaking of the assignments juz make me faint. its going to be difficult loh. too many rules liao.

Written in APA format. (what APA??) then have to follow the measurement of margin given.(what shit!!!). in font size 12 n in Times font. then some need reference lists (bks u refer to) . words limits of 2000 words. theories to explain n then the story u are going to tell. haizzz its going to be as good as writing a bk.

We are all so much together and yet we are all dying of loneliness - Albert Schweitzer

这种因为不在而存在的无言压力令人感到制息

Totally lost somewhere already. days juz passed like that. what am i doing??? Don seem to be making sense.

Pressurized??? strezz?? or not in the mood?? don look like anyone of them.

when 1 became aimless that person can began thinking about the past. the person will miss what was impt to him. he will begin to remember the outings or meetings. where ppl used to wait for him to join them after work. the journey home. the ones that began to open him up. the social talks.

Everything means a lot.

He may look his usual self on the outside. he may look calm. but on the inner mentality he lacks many. too many already to the extend even he can't explain it himself. emotionally he lacks it to the extend that he wish that he will juz get knock down by a car n ends it.

too tired n numbed. getting to stage that make him feel like giving everything up. but he can't or things will be back to the unnatural life which he cope himself up.

坚持，加油 someone told him n he will always remember it. wish that the one who told him that will also be the same.

Giving must come from the heart. It is not a robotic act which you condition yourself to.

寂寞的季

Today is a sad day. i totally shut off. i got no mood to listen to the lecture. no mood to stdy. concentration cannot be maintained also. nothing went into my head.(my motor is not working today) i will always be looking at the clock on the wall waiting for the clock to tick 4pm.

Went Taka after lesson to meet 2 frenz there. its damned crowded today at orchard loh. u can knock into others easily if not careful.

there is this food fare at Taka Square. its so crowded that we gave it a miss. went to the men's deptment coz this fren (boon) wans to buy a shirt. in the end its not him who bought anything but me. i bought a pack of socks (all my socks needs to be changed got holes all over liao)

had our dinner at long john cine. tok tok a bit. Roy still doing his Conselling course in NUS. then ah boon is doing the radiology at NYP. seems like people nowadays going for something related to medical bah.........

Emotion of fear can cause us to cowards or courageous

没有你的日子就像一片空白，就像失去了一切

the week is tiring for me. i practically almost reach home 10+ everyday. its a long day considering i start out the day at 5+ in the morning.





Staying in Jurong for more then a wk liao. still finds it difficult to adjust. its also not feeling right when u reach home n no one except u urself is around. the home is so empty that u hear even the slightest sound. ecohes will keep me company also. don feel like going home stimes. it juz does not feel right. sthings missing.





i am thinking if this is right or wrong for me





anyway i start out on the lecture for Intro to Psychology today. what the lectures is saying is somewhat related to what i have always believe in. there is not right or wrong to anything. its juz the way u try to explain things. things that may not work for u may work for someone else.





it some sort of click with me. not like what i had in the last lecture. i had so many ? around my head. i seemed lost.





here are some question for me n you:





1. what you want to be?





2. what you have to do "to be" the one you want to be?





3. what you want to have after you "do" what you are suppose to do and become the one you want to "be"??





everyone understand what i am trying to say???

dinner of the day

Money may not make you happy but a lack of money will definitely make you unhappy

Long day for me. i actually slept at the lobby of the hospital while waiting until my mom wakes me up. very shack liao.

below is the pics of the day

the newborn of the day

this one have been bothering me for the whole day

Sucess is not measured by what you achieved, but by how many times you are able to pick yourself up from failure.

有个女孩让我好想念

i found that i did something amazing today.(actually not me alone lah). i completed lecture which would take ppl in australia 3 months to complete in juz 3 days. the lecture we go through the weekend is actually tought through 3 months in Australia. A super crush course for me n the others.

So with Social Determinants of behaviour down, the nxt up coming will be Introduction to Psycology (weird leh how come Intro comes after some other lecture). hope that i will be able to catch up. going too fast some time that i am not able to catch up..

went Orchard walk walk alone today after lesson. (lonely) then went Central tok tok. its kind of become a habit for them liao. they tell me their 心事whenever i went there. i also juz listen lah even if i can't help them. Anyway let them juz pour out so that they will be a little 好过.

shld be going Hong Kong if schedule permit bah. i need some holidays.

one of the nice vroom vroom near my work place

Do not succumb to failure but instead make the best of circumstances

让我保护你，让我照顾你

我只要你开心多一点

its the 2nd day at lesson today. i know its going to be tough for me already. i don even understand what the lecture is toking about. Sucks man!!!!!

The lecture juz start from nowhere. it uses terms that even i donno what is the meaning. the one teaching also juz assume we already knew those terms.

Assignments to due by the end of the month. its going to be hard to complete since everything juz don seem to click with me. many readings to do on my own.

i also find the its universal rule that all lecture rooms are 'cold'. the room temperature is cold. the ppl are cold too. we don even tok to each other. not to mention that i am going to be stuck with them for at least 18 mths. only a handful of those studying are around my age. the rest looks like in their mid 30s or even more. the oldest shld be 40++ ba

Pack days ahead. the below shld be how its going to be for the days to come bah (if anything no change)

Sun 080707 : lesson till 5pm then to White Sands collect money

Mon 090707 : work till 3pm -> Mount A hosptial -> lesson 7pm to 10pm

Tue 100707 : work till 3pm -> home to wait for contract for installation of tV pt

Wed 110707 : work till 3pm -> lesson till 10 pm

and so on lah

today will be the wedding of my cousin. getting married only at the age of 40+ (poor thing)

Monday i will have a new addition to the family. Sis giving birth at Mount A. So the jiujiu thing is there............

Losing what you have now does not mean you lose the future

让我握着你的你的手，度过这难过的日子

Went Taka Central after work to look for those 'frenz' of mine on monday (2nd july). Chat with them. Found out that Ah Shun was there on Sunday. Problems were also piling at the restaurant also. Many was telling me that they want to quit already liao, but not all can juz say they wan to quit n quit juz like i do. they have to consider will they be able to support themselves n family.

Ah qing ShiFu told me but need immediate appointment so that he can support his family. Ah Sam dunno where to go after quitting. Then the Ah Fei cannot support his own expense if not working. Dessert Ah Jie needs the CPF to support her sons' educations. Chopper Fei is not with his work. All got no choice but to carry on the work.

things were getting choatic at the the resturant also. many got no mood to carry on. food n drinks went out of taste. the communication between each other were breaking. employ those taiji aunties to work. walk here n there n never get things done.

very sad to hear all these. they got no one to listen to their complains. cannnot tell their families. they got their own personal problems also. though its sad to hear it but its worth toking to them. u learn things from their experience, how they encounter the problems n how they solve it.

Toking from experience.

3rd July. Nthing much happen. went to the new 师奶cafe at east coast park. its huge man almost double the size of Central TAka. ate ala carte there n find the pork ribs' best. tender n juicy meat.

happy occasions coming up also. cousin getting married on 070707. Congrates to him. Sis giving birth on 090707. she become mother n i become the ' jiujiu ' (sounds like old old liao)

Adding the personal touch will always touch someone's heart.

Things have gotten settled a bit now that most tasks were done. Peace for the rest of the wk (hope its going smooth throughout).

Finally get the weekend off!!!!!!!

Watched TRANSFORMERS with some frenz. Its a hit man. All the explosions, actions...... not to forget the 3D effects. Story lines great too so be sure to watch it. The production missed out a lot of robots. Sad... but still its a great one.

Optimus Primes' cool but Bumble Bee's the best of the movie. The autobots can change into any car they like. i wish i can have one of those too!!!!!!!!!

OPTIMUS PRIME

BUMBLE BEE