If you don't understand it, don't do it

it's getting more and more pressured at work. there may not be much work but the pressure of someone pushing you from unseen corners is suffocating.There are indescribable things. or maybe i shld juz pretend to not see and hear anything. i may juz quit if things continue.

i donno how to explain it but i don get the satisfaction from working at the place anymore.

The gear's going up. Life's going to get paced up. TEst, Assignments and Exam dates are up. The first to be due will be somewhere next week. Then it continues on with things to be handed in every week. Nothing's going to stop until Feb. The Exam will be up and that will be the completion of 2nd yr of study. Ya valentine's day, ya..

My grade's not out still !!!! i wonder what they are doing over in Australia.... Stupid UNi....in any case i passed my first yr hahaha......

We met through the millions. its no coincidence that we met.

The days passed by too slowly liao. this November felt super long. Time don seem to tick by as quickly as before. There was much work to be done but it was like naturally completed. there was no feeling of urgency.

i found out (finally) on thurs what everyone are working as in my class through an intro to the new tutor. They are actually professionals!!!! For the public side, there are people from the accounting and HR deptment. from the govt, the MOE, RSAF, SAF and the Police Force. All of them had job something to do with Psychology. i am the only one who holds a job not related to Psychology in any way but i don care Lol.

Actually i did not intend to do a 'Pure' psychology as what i am doing now. i had actually wan something that is related to business or something like Business Psychology but somehow or other i got into this course. Anyway this is the course i wanted this time and its after long considerations. it's not at all like what i did for my diploma, i juz close my eyes and choose any course.

watched movie 'The Tattooist' at Tiong Bahru. the movie's about a tattooist whose tattoo can kill after he met with some incident. The movie was set at Singapore (Singapore made film) and gradually move on to New Zealand. it's rated NC16/horror but i don see the need. there was none bit of horror. PG rating shld be good enough. dined at commonwealth before going home.

Finally met Ah Bing but on the bus (odd places). Tok for a while before she get off. She seemed troubled and don look herself.

' Have you ever loved somebody so much that it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad that you can't sleep at night? Have ever you try to find the words but you dunno what to say and where to start? '

Know where the variability is and be able to account for it.

Uncle called and said Grandma’s not feeling well today. She was brought to hospital for some checks according to source and is now back at home.

Finally I get to see Mom at home today (juz for the few mins). We say a few words before she go looking for her grandson again. LOl again I become home alone.

Had a frustrating day going around all the banks looking for coin services. I needed to change some notes to coins for cashiering. I went into most of the banks at JE central and none was able to do it. They can only do the exchange on Tuesday and Thursday for most. OCBC at JE don provide coin exchange service.

Had very light dinner n I am super hungry now. What shld I eat????

'Don’t tell me it’s the end yet, coz one day we will hold each other’s hand and never let go....for now....Sorry...'

If you work hard for money, then why not make money work hard for you

It is an unsatisfying week for me. I don really remember what happened the few days of the wk but i noe i am not in my rite mind for the days.

I called out to the wrong address while cabbing hm on Thursday nite. realised only when the route does not seem rite.

On Friday i purposely went in late for lesson. It was a good lesson taught though. N surprise!!!! the lecturer was Dr Paul the one teaching us Statistics 2 juz 1 wk ago. I think there is a lack of lecturer lol.

Then on Sat mah, i dunno if i was dreaming... I was on bus 97 on my way to NUH for some scanning. i was still not waken n i was slping on the bus the moment i step on it. i think i wake up at some pt to check where i was. I think i saw someone looking like 'Sotong girl'. she was looking everywhere but not in my direction. i tried waving to her but no respond so forget it n juz continued slpping.

So for today(Sun), was hm most of the time. JP for lunch at Long John with Ck. short meeting n back hm. out again 7pm. To DaPa resturant at Holland V. New restaurant setup through 4 partnership. Got 2 know 2 of the bosses. they give me a very good impression. they are no snobbish pple like some n i don get the strange feeling normally with stranger. they are really lucky. age of 25 n loaded. (shit i am beginning to envy them).

' Everyone should enjoy themselves, including You. Don't stop and go do whatever you want. Wherever you are, i'll be there. If i am left behind, i will catch up with your steps. Unless you choose to take a route i cannot find. '

It's the companion that counts.

Its another day passed. today's a relaxed day at work. Though there were many pple patronising us, we juz did it slowly. The queue also got long as a result LOl.

the aircon's not ON today due to some miscommunications. The food court was hot like oven n everyone was complaining about it n i was sweating like i am juz out from some workout. The situation quite down after the aircon was ON.

I argued with the boss about some accounting stuffs. There was some errors with their account update, but he juz said ignored it n continue. haizz too incorrigible liao.

Anyway i went looking for Mei jie after work. it took me a long time before i decide where to go. i seat at the bus stop watching the bus goes by one by one.

It was wks since i saw her. Toked to me about her stress, unhappiness at work. This is really a longlong story from her. i juz listen to her, juz let her tok her heart out.

We went PS after her work to look for AH Di. hahaha he had grown fat. EAt good, Sleep good loh. He also tok about the many mess at work.

Ya maybe everyone got their own problems. Good to let it out but i think u have to get the right person.

' There are many more unhappiness in life then those happy moments. Be sure to cherish the happy moments spent. Remember it and forget about the unhappiness. BUT there is one most important thing. Those people that spent the unhappy times with you are the ones that really care about you. Remember them. '

Let your inspirations run wild

MILLION THANKS EVERYONE!!!!!

Looking back and its an emotional year. Many sad things happened and there were the least happy moments. But then it is still all the unhappiness that made the joyous things special.

Let's look forward to the new year.

Don't take things for granted

SATurday(10 Nov): i had lesson from 0900 to 1600. then went to meet Ah Shun at Vivo. had thought of calling more to meet but did not, coz it was more or less last min n it was lucky i did not also when was planned by MR Shun went down the drain flatly.

We shld have watch movie but the available tickets were left with row 2 n 3 and decide to abort it. N surprise surprise there was nothing to do after giving the movie a miss :( i thk it alway ended up like this.

We went Harbour Front for a KFC meal before 65ed to Orchard. Went Taka, the Toy fair for X'mas is up. As usual the mall's packed. 1930 we parted. he went bugis n i went Bradell.

After meeting those 'frenz', we went all the way to Fisherman Village. i think it was no more in operation. According to a regular there the 'center' was pulled down. So venue changed to ECP. We choose HK cafe for our dinner . we were there for a long time. Juz imagine that i am able to finish a total of 2 matches n some commercial times.

INstant Fries Noodles Fried Udon ( both very salty)

Sun (11 NOv): There was supposed to be lesson today but i did not go. i went to work instead. there was a Buffet for 150 pple at Chevrons. as usual waited after all preparations done n clear up after.

Had curry fish head for dinner at commonwealth n 198ed back. nothing much for the day.

The best recipes are the ones you create yourself.

Biz brisk today. Not many pple eating lunch. everyone was like hitting the houseflies. It could be due to the holiday. Pple may have taken off day today. becoz of this i leave early from work at about 2pm.

Went IMM wondering around. nothing new there but there will be No more free parking at IMM as from 1st Nov onwards!!!! WTH!!!!

197 to Bugis for lesson after but still too early. 4pm reached n lesson start 630pm. So went SIm Lim Square for a spin. its months since i went there. Those new laptops from ASUS are tempting!!!! and those setup of desktops are way cool loh n are prompting me to revive my own desktop hahaha. i still miss my old desktop. i can do so much with it but with the laptop now i can say its very limited.

i think Luo Zi Xiang from Taiwan is at bugis today. Many were queuing up for the autography i think. Super crowded also. So had to make do with 2 take away bread for dinner. i had to sit at the bus stop outside the school to finish it... SHit man... not my day.

So well light lesson today. Its for the module Lifespan Developmental Psychology. I more or less got what the lecture's trying to say so no pressure. i dunno why i had been uttering a lot of rubbish today at the lesson and writing rubbish also for decision. everyone laugh like hell man Lol.

AH Shun called to jio me out. Says he planning the things so lets see what stuns he can pull hehehe...

Anything is possible when a group of like-minded people hang together.

HappY DEepavali!!!!!

A Official public HOliday in Singapore and some other country. Though 'official', it's not celebrated in a big way for many (the indian does look at this day seriously). 1 reason may be that Christmas' coming. More people celebrate X'mas as compared.

Preparations are under the way for the celebrations. Lights for the 'day' are going up from TAnglin to Orchard and then all the way to City HAll and Suntec. The Shopping Malls started decorating their buildings. there are a bit of mess at Orchard with the upcoming very very big revamp.

As for me on the last few days, still work..... Sweating it out at kitchen most of the time. i still need to help in The Super hot kitchen environment. it's making me sweat like hell that i have to bring extra clothes (like free sauna hahaha). i cannot go home without changing if not i smell like shit.

for today i think i spent most of time rotting away. time spent betwn the bks, com and bed Lol. HAd dinner at Clementi with Hong. Got a plate of super salty char kuay tiao. Had a few bits and thats it. i cannot finish it.

Mom's missing again(hahaha). She's nowhere in sight since Sunday nite. I thk she forgot about her son when she is with her grandson Lol......

' The situations' getting tighter, the stakes getting bigger.Don panic and remain in composure. PIck task from the easiest to hardest n complete it. Things were said, challenges were given so give the BEST Shot at it. '

Think about what the future is like to hold for ourselves and those we care about as we progress through life.

Lesson starts 3 days ago and lesson ends today. Lectures for Psychology Statistics 2 juz ended today. So bye bye Dr Paul from Australia. This sure is fast leh. i still cannot get use to it. Now i will be left with all the tutorials and assigments. =/

Statistics is a very hard course. i still got ? all over even with all the very very detail explainations by Dr Paul. i am very satisfied with his teachings but there is a bad point. he got the 'lullaby' voice. u will 'agree' with whatever he say after a while. MAny will juz get 'KO' with all the super complicated formula and calculations. i tried hard to concentrate but most of the time i juz draw on my bk and not listen.

went for Movie GAme PLan on Sat nite. A film by Walt Disney. The Rock is the main cast. its a comedy. its a very good n interesting movie on my personal opinion. Laughed throughout the show. i think others agree also. this is the first time i heard clapping sounds while watching movie!!!!

The 'stadium' style cine at the cathay is best man. The seating's view is good, comfy and spacious, the sound is great, and the screen is super clear!!!! haha this may be the next best compare to the one at GV vivo.

We went Pioneer Mall Mac (near my hm) after the movie. It was 2 in the morning. It was still filled with ppl. Settled down after some wait. We had some toking. There was normal tok in the beginning. We planned on where to go for the next outing there was even suggestion to go Genting coming JAn BUT i noe these never work coz there will always be problems and we had to cancel it last min hahaha. Slowly slowly we came on to the relation topic.

CK had no plan (he juz broke up).
JQ plans on getting ROM with his girl 2008. he is putting the pressure on the remaining 3 of us :P
Jelene appears to have a crush with someone at work. she asked us for advised and we ended up suggesting rubbish for her hahahaha. (very bad) Anyway we could only juz wish her good luck coz she don really see the guy often at work (the guy is at another deptment). All she can do now is to take the initatives to go get close to him.
For me.... i still dun really noe about it. i think we have to tok about the 'click' and 'understanding' before anything else comes. nothing works with the rite click and rite understanding or communcations. But i can be really dim wits at these also. i may not even noe if 'she' appear before me.

A+B does not always give you an answer

The storm at work is finally over. All the early early report times, the packing, cooking, have all come back to normal.

I am fainting from the SUPERHEATED kitchen on the last 2 days. There was such chaos. The kitchen was super dirty n oily also. We would have been fined n called to stop operations if the NEA were to turn up.

Now everything is back to normal. the same things happen everyday still. i am still there with the 'KA CHING KA CHING' thing n helping out at the kitchen when needed.

the storm may be over at work but i feel that the wind is blowing somewhere already. i dunno what but i think its going to be big.

Collecting my text n lesson starting tomolo(finallY)!!!! hahaha my 1 month finally over. the days going to be rough ahead.

' Its hard to explain. There are no words and actions that can best represent it. Give it some time becoz time will tell the truth. This may be old and outdated but it's the most suitable thing to say now. I LOVE YOU.'- From the HEART