iN 5 yeArs timeS

its not about the hand you're dealt with, but how you play it

time seem to have stopped today. things have become blurred. losing track of what its meant to be now.

today i want to post out some questions to all of u out there reading

what will u be in 5 years time?
do what u studied serves as a guide to u??
Is the guide or what u studied be relevent after u graduate???
will u find employment????
will u be going further study?????
r u going to work for people for life or u wan something different??????

give it some serious thought about it... u can share with me if u like. write it down somewhere so as to noe if what u think now is coming true.

the first 4 questions have serves irrelevent for me. what i am thinking 5 years behind have all vanished. the last 2 will set me thinking from now on.

Slumber land Zzzzzzzz

Decide what you want to do, then prepare the necessary to help accomplished it

today i can't seem to wake up from slumber land. was blur n tired. sleeping the whole day, do nothing. i don remember having lunch n dinner also. maybe i wake up too early or i missed something impt???(caffine???). juz cannot get my engine to work properly....

the DAY of all MOTHER

未来有着无限的可能性，那绝对不是任何人能测度的

the future holds absolute possibilities, no ordinay person can predict it.

HAPPY MOTHER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went for mother's day dinner today at Long Beach Resturant in IMM today (ya IMM again). there many customer, luckily we already booked a table in advance. But booking a table was of no use. those who came later have to wait for the tables even if already have reserved. very inefficient. luckily there were no problem with the food. i enjoyed myself (to some extend) Normally we don tok much but all was happy with the gathering (maybe its the feeling of being together????). but somehow i feel something amiss (dunno what its juz the feeling)

Bro-in-law, Sis n Mom

do they look alike???

they don give a damn to my cam

Another Day juz passed

tHe gReAteSt tHiNg yOu'lL eVeR lEaRn iS jUsT tO LoVe aNd tO bE LoVeD iN ReTuRn

hi its like 4.30am now n i am already wake(slept like from 10 pm????) . seems like its still friday to me. the day like not completed.

oh ya, its HAppy Birthday for Ah qing on SUNDAY!!!!!! went with this 文龙 to go get something for her. a mp3 player was decided. went SIM LIM to get it (can i say how much it cost????). the cost will be shared among 4.

Qing ShiFu also followed us to SIM LIM but got nothing. he was thinking of getting new PC. he was eager to get it but i told him think carefully.i will do it for him...... i went to his house after we part with 文龙. his PCs were all in mess.(Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!) one was down with the main board. then i cannot get the other to log on to the NET. something was blocking the connections no IP address also.... (or maybe i dunno how to do it????)

HOME SWEET HOME AT 7pm

Some people come into our lives,
leave footprints
on our hearts,
and we are never the same.

Stayed hm most of the time today (good boy rite?? haha). Was only out to get lunch n dinner then came back straight after. fast food most of the time. I feel like vomitting. though dinner was prepared by neighbour but was never for for me. maybe its already a habit i never have dinner at hm since working at the restuarant.

The few tips shared by my broker fren have been tried out. Started out since monday n made some earnings (contact me to find out how). stayed at hm to surf the web for these reason today to find out more. very tedious job to do but its worth the try. juz surf to read about the info.....(ermmm i mean the news). there are things u never noe until u try out. sometimes the result yielded are unimaginable.

the result of the fall near IMM 2 days ago began taking its effect. my knee was a bit swollen and the blue n black patches appears.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Questions come to my mind again. am i to move in with mum??? am i to continue work or go study???? will i have the income to substain if i go study????? (OOoooooo headache n i feel old) so much to worry........the ans still lies with the last question (most impt for me now).....

Dinner Date???

We cannot change yesterday. We can only make the most of today, and look with hope toward tomorrow

Today i went out with WB TW n GM. yap. we have not meet for i think 2 wks liao.

actually planned to go FUNAN before meeting GM but feel that its going to rain liao so did not.

Reached NP to meet GM at about 4pm. was still early so went into canteen 1 to take a look. Saw that the CO OP i used to buy things from had change to another name n the layout also changed (forget what the name is now) the rest were more or less the same. or maybe i did not notice the changes???

then went to the cheers near the bus stop where the sky starts to rain. its a storm......... When GM arrives we went SP to meet TW. we met Jiasheng, Cheng n his frenz. tok for a while then TW finally comes.

we took the train to JE then change to bus before we arrives at IMM. Met WB. went to this cafe cartel for dinner. when we finished ordering this TW was still wondering what to eat.

went to the library where we use the wireless net. then to the bank and home.

uneventful outing. Guess they r all tired and busy???

there has been a thing i was wondering. TW was always saying about something not returned but i wonder what it is. bothered by it..............

Sudden CALLS!!!!

"Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart."

Today i kind of got many sudden calls from people around me. First i got a call from dessert auntie, Meijie, that woke me up. its 10 plus in the morning n i fall asleep at about 4 am (very annoying leh). then she told me she coming somewhere near my house for fortune telling wans me go with her. when we met i found that 3 others tagged along also(don care lah). then we went to the so called house to look for the (err) master???

we reached n there were people already before us. one was like asking about how will the relationship with her husband goes, the other is asking about her health(if i remember correctly). i listen to the advise given to them n it was like going for conselling. asking them not to worry, nothing will happen sort of. (oh ya it was done in the hall so i heard everything)

one by one we went to try. then finally my turn (i went so why nt try out) after 4hrs wait (ya 4hrs). i was falling asleep liao loh. i went up then chose a card (done using poker cards). out came a Spade of Ace. thought its a good card. but guess what he told me, he say cannot tell me anything!!!!!!!

after 4hrs wait i was told nothing!!!!!!!! (poor me......)............ 6 words from him also 天机不可泄漏. i was so interested already then was told nothing in end(very sad one leh)!!!!!!!!!! everyone got told something n nothing for me but then again if i were told things what will happen. i think better to not know the future first (i guess) step by step loh.

after which we decide to leave for lunch (i think shld be dinner). we bus-sed down to IMM from Choa Chu Kang. The sec call came during the ride. the botak FEI called me!!!!!!!!! he called n say 很想我... (very weird). stun for a while before i reply. asked me i going back work at CENTRAL??? replied him that i go back only if the boss come tok to me n we reached some sort of agreements before going back. (no use toking to manager or SUSAN they r rubbish n cannot decide on anything). found out that baojie is sick through conversation (cannot help anymore i no more staff of CENTRAL).

Reached IMM n we decide to go to this 街头茶餐厅. went to this 餐厅 once got good impression. went in and saw only the supervisor is working at that time(poor thing....) then found out that the rest have went for their break so left only him. on seeing him with nothing to do we di siao him a bit(hehehe). the usual complains from what we received from customers: too salty, too sweet, not hot enough.... on n on.......(ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz) In the end, we finally reveal that we were also from F&B line. found out that they r opening more outlets soon. (hehe one of the new outlet will be at Bukit Panjang Plaza!!!!!). exchanged contacts but card belong to manager. asked me if would like to join them...... invited me to go for an interview when the manager is back (ya the manager not around).... everyone was in high mood

Walked to JE MRT take train back. i fell into the drain while walking there!!!!!!!! (hahaha embrassing :p). changed to bus at CCK MRT n the third call came. this was really an unexpected call. its from Ah wan, cashier from this Parkway. asked me i really not working already????? what will i be doing???????

donno why everyone don believe that i am already not working for the reaturant already.... think to them i was like stuck there n nowhere to go already.......... even this bar Ah Jie don believed it.............

天下没有不扇之宴席thats my thinking. no matter how much i missed the work place or the people there i will have no future if i continue there. have to start afresh somewhere.

Say too much today........ Sorry

Money Dayz

If we knew ourselves better,
we would be more forgiving of others

No work still for the day. i think its going to continue for some time coz i not planning to get a job still.

i woke up about 11am. Have my breakfast then went on slacking. (Too aimless already) i was like stoning after breakfast. do nothing juz stare at the ceiling. i tried reading books but could not concentrate. too long never touch a book that juz reading a few pages makes me drowsy. i dig out my old notes also it all look so foreign to me. i have to read it a few times to be able to understand it. i can't imagine i wrote all those back then. its like i am so profound, so chim...(hehe)

i went on to look for the passwords to investment accounts which were given to me by frens back then. logged in and found that all was gaining money but all was not mine. i did not invest in any of those n i totally regretted it. Logged onto this poems account which i had registered a few months back to check on the stock market. never bother to read the news they provided then went straight on to look at my stocks that i had monitored proved that i was right. Gaining money again but no money to collect.....(sad)

ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG

i lost a lot of money

oh well forget about the money for now first, will find my way to get it somehow. (ya rite somehow) very fedup so decide to go for a walk. Aimless again. for some reason i ended looking for my SHI FU at raffles place. he is now working at a coffee shop. (u noe its juz behind the CENTRAL office n no one from the office noe about it). i waited for him for like 3 hours there but the wait is worth it. he teaches me some new tricks. (hehe i will be more skillful in future).

during the 3 hours wait i thought about what my fren said to me. he was like telling me to try out stock trading for a living. He is a stock broker for ur info n i met him last wednesday. he is like asking " why not try out stock trading while u r still looking for a job???" .... "u may not need the job if u make it to be like me" he said. i taken up the offer straight since i noe a bit in trading the stocks ( how many bit is for u to decide), but am still not making enough for the expense i need.

LOst n confused. wondering if i continue will i be able to make it?? what if something goes wrong?? needs rethinking again.........

First 1

MON 23rd April

hi all this will be my first blog so please give ur support.

i though of putting my feelings on the net cause i am a man of few words. ( got some difficulty with saying it out sometimes). then somemore living with someone too old for me to tok to sometimes.........we got this generation gap........

last week was a free to do anything week. i was FINALLY out of the bloody Barista job. its a horror for me no off days sometimes then have to work 12hrs(very texting on my mental health i guess). For ur info i still managed more then ONE n HAlf YEAR there!!!!!!!!!

But guess what i got this freedom, i lost company. no one to tok to, no one to complain, no one to dine with n so on. it was horrible. Frens were busy with their own matters, some even lost contact. (my circle of fren is very small). i suddenly find that i got too much time on hand. the sudden change in pace gives me the uneasiness

i went out everyday wandering aimlessly. Areas around City Hall n Raffles Place Mrt, all i went. things have change much, shops which i remembered was no more there.(prob cause i too long a time never went there). There were too many new things that make me say: 'Wow' whats that? i kept asking questions also (i look like mountain tortise in the end.)

Finally i got this so call family dinner on SUN (juz yesterday). we did not talk much but i enjoyed the time spent. its been too long that i juz sit down n think nothing other then having hearty dinner.... my mother is asking me to move in with her. i always told her to wait. there was always a thinking in my mind that still makes me hesitate.(a change in evironment; u gain something, u lose something)